one of them days.

ugh. do you ever get so bored with your life that you just wanna do something crazy??? yeah. that was me today. i was so completely bored and unsatisfied with everything that I just wanted to do something crazy like chop my right arm off or something. this is probably because i haven't gone to church in like a full month or so. sigh yes. i know. i know.

it's definitely one of themmmmm dayyyyys. the kind where you wish you lived a different person's life. or something to look forward to.

i've been looking forward to.... nothing really. haha. i say that i want to go somewhere fancy and dress up real cute and all, but then again i don't really want to. i wish i didn't care so much about fashion.. about what's in my closet.. about my looks. it's all really stupid. but i do. it's only natural i guess. ho hum.

all i really want to do is dress in anne of green gables clothes and frolic in the green fields while Marilla is inside cooking up dinner and Matthew is tending to the cows. only true AGG fans know what i'm talking about. yeah-yuh.

i want what i don't want.

so..... i like the cold, but i don't like being cold. during the summer, i always wish and hope for the fall, but when fall comes around, it lasts for a day and jumps right into winter. i hate that.

buttttttt... after looking through the blog, JAK & JIL, i want what i don't want. i want the cold (but not really) and i want to look as good as the models in these pictures. haha, i am just a confusing little bumble bee aren't i???? of course i can't have cold weather without feeling cold, and of course i can't look as good as the models, but whateva skanevs! i'm trying to say that i guess i want to actually put in some effort everyday because the whole thing about buying nothing and wearing a new outfit from my closet everyday failed miserably. hahhhhh. oh well. hopefully this time i'll actually try. it's gonna be hard because i'm not too motivated to look all cute for my grad classes especially with the ahjussi and ahjumah's all up in there, but i want to at least wear lipstick every now and then. haha.. we shall see.

here are some pics from JAK & JIL:

WOW.

The Worst Parent In The WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD AWARD goes toooooooooooooo: MY DAD!!!!!

OHHHHHHH lucky MEEEEEE!!!

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i'm gonna fake my death or something so i can live and be free from them.

colors.

this fall, i want to go crazy with bright colors. ON MAH FACEEEEEE.





photos from http://scissor-sisters-scissor-sisters.blogspot.com/

ughhh.

i need some inspiration.


p.s. i really really miss wearing lipstick. sighhh.

i wish i was a french girl.

wow. joseph gordon-levitt. you are quite possibly the hottest guy in the world.

lucky.

even though i am currently suffering from a stupid corneal ulcer and abrasion on my eyeball, i consider myself pretty lucky. although i feel as if i have aged a million years because of all the stress that this year has put on me, i consider myself lucky.


i feel pretty lucky because of this guy right hereeeeeee. my little stinkypantsies. (haha my face looks so plump in this picture because jason's pushing my cheek in HAHA i'm a little plumpppppieeeeeeeee)


ahahahah. <3



God, thank you, really, for blessing me with Jason. This past year has been pretty rough, but i'm thankful that you gave me somebody to show the support and love that You have for me. love you love you love you love you and can't wait til i see You in heaven. Until then, help me to live for You.