just for you to know.

so something has been on my mind and it's really bugging me to PIECES. so people in my family think that i always only think about myself and they call this "the sunnie show." okay, well i get what they're trying to say, but honestly, it's really never about me. maybe when i'm feeling really depressed and i'm having pity parties about me and my life, but other than that.. it's really not about me. my parents don't praise me on my life decisions, they're never really proud of me, and all they have to say are negative things about me. so right there.. it's not about me. my grandparents on my dad's side hate me and pretty much disowned me because i didn't choose a profession in some kind of medical field. they really want nothing to do with my life so that's not about me either. so pretty much, "the sunnie show" is just negative nancy stuff. and i feel like that's just sad. and i know the very few people who read this are probably like.. it IS about you because this post has so many "I.. I.. I's!!" but really though? this is my blog.. of course it's gonna have a lot of I and me me me's because it sure as hell won't be able you.

sorry that this entry is so negative nancy and debbie downer, but i'm in rare form right now because something just lit my fuse and i'm about to explode.

i think i'm going to start cutting out the disease in my life until God helps me love the way He created me. honestly, i might even be the disease... but i know that God understands me and loves me. and really, in the end, that's all that matters.

took this the other day... it's exactly how i feel about you.

and i'm not trying to say what chris brown did was good by any means, but this video makes me feel so happy and i just really love him.

so koo koo ka chooooooo. i'm moving to germany or something and guten tag-ing it up. SEE YA.

random thoughts.

off to class in like 10 minutes, but i felt like writing a post for some strangeee reason. i love this song. i love bon iver. i started listening to their music later than i would have liked. anyway, my stomach is feeling better.. just really gaseous hahaaaaa. I have so much workload for the next month and a half and then crazy packed in summer courses, but hopefully i will finish school soon and get outtaaaaaaaaa heeeeeere. :) i miss my sick boyfriend. it's his first day at his new job and he got my stomach virus on saturday. i felt so bad for him. but of course, he kicked it in the butt real fast and dragged himself to work and presented himself nicely. :) that's my mannnn.


anyway... two random pictures during this random time writing this random post on a random monday. ladidaaaa.

haha you can see straight up my big nostrrrrrils.

look at my uneven eyes. hmm i look kinda haggard and maybe cross eyed. sighh my life.

lataaaaaaz.

happy.

this video makes me really happy even though this song is old. :)

i've been sick with a stomach virus ever since wednesday. my brother decided to come home for spring break with the virus and ruin my spring break by passing it on to me. yayyyyy. ughhh i've been so miserable it's not even funny. the only thing i've been worried about is my metabolism. i wanna be free to eat whatever i want without becoming a huge beached whale. sighhh.. i still love my brother though.

my sister got engagedddddd this past saturday. i'm so excited for her and i love her very much. i feel like her boyfriend (jason) fits in perfectly with me taeyee and unnies. i'm happy that he will soon be considered family to me (even though he always felt like a part of my family to me before the engagement). i'm so excited to help my sister wedding plan and hopefully she'll let me go and taste test some food hahah. <3


even though there's been so much happiness in my life lately (sister's engagement and taeyee coming home), i've been feeling really defeated and sad lately. it's probably because i'm sick and feeling very vulnerable, but i also think it's because i feel so stuck. it's been two years since i graduated school and although i'm in grad school, i still feel like the same person. the same old broke, unhappy, and jobless girl. i'm happy this song resurfaced into my life again because watching the video makes me smile. and hopefully smiling can cure this funk that i'm in....

lent.

so. i decided to give up facebook for lent because i pretty much waste time on it everyday for maybe.... i don't even know. i always have it up, i never work on my assignments on time because i'm browsing (stalking random people hahaaa) on it or writing on people's walls. it's pretty gross. SO! i've decided that i need to stop and that it's kinda disgusting how interested i am in other people's lives (in a bad way). this way, i can be using my time wisely (the way God wants me to be using my time) and i'm thinking that i'll be much more productive. Hopefully, that also means that i will be writing and updating more on my blog. Another thing that I've decided to do for lent is to comb through my closets, drawers, and storage bags of clothes and literally purge my room clean of all of the clothes that i NEVER wear-- especially all of those free tshirts i have laying around so that i could maybe wear them to the gym or something. i think i have like over 30 random tshirts. and let me just tell you... those tshirts have never seen the gym. I wanted to try giving up shopping in general... but i have a good feeling that i'll break that in like.. a day. so, i'm going to work my way up to that hopefully by next year. ANWAYYYYYYY. here's to a successful season of lenttttttttt!!

[i'll post pictures more often too :)]


Lord, help me to rely on You during this time AND at ALLLLLL times. help me to use this time wisely and pleasing to You.

untitled.

the stuff i thought my family would understand the most... they don't get at all. my parents have disappointed me 3849738473948 times in the past, but this is the first time i felt this way towards my entire family.

some people make me feel so disgusted it's not even funny. and please, before anybody judges me, examine yourself for goodness sake.


i've never been made to feel so low in my life. thank God because He's the one who keeps me alive.

wedding bells.

OH MY LANTAAAAAA. Thank you to the lovely jessica yoon for sending me the link to this amazing article!! This article happens to be about the creators of anthro, free people, and urban outfitters breaking into the wedding market. AHHHH. I'm so excited. the wedding brand name is BHLDN, which is a weird name, BUT I'M SO EXCITEDDDD. Jessica, you seriously should become a wedding planner because you knew I would die over this.

This is what the article says:

Brides-to-be rejoice: the creative team from Philadelphia-based Anthropologie, which opened its first store on the Main Line in 1992, is now in the wedding market.

The company that brings you such free-spirited favorites as Urban Outfitters, Anthropologie and Free People is debuting BHLDN, a new wedding brand, launching online February 14th and opening a storefront later this year. Since Urban Outfitters, Inc. is headquartered in the Philadelphia Naval Shipyard, we cross our fingers for a location close to home.

The collection will feature dreamy dresses under BHLDN’s own label, as well as exclusive designs from other brands like Fleur Wood, Tracy Reese and Catherine Deane. BHLDN’s gowns “pay respect to the old, new, borrowed and blue, but each with a wink and a nod.”

BHLDN will also offer unique event dresses, vintage-inspired accessories and, eventually, decorations to complete the perfect day.

We love the momentum in Philadelphia retail and creativity!

(go to: http://www.uwishunu.com/2011/02/philadelphia-based-urban-outfitters-inc-to-debut-bhldn-a-wedding-brand-on-valentines-day/)

AHHHH i cannot WAIT for february 14th so i can look at all of the dresses. HAHA. I'm not even getting married any time soon, but just the fact that one of my favorite companies (who's stationed in philly, which means that it's very possible that the BHLDN store will be here) will be making awesome vintage, but new dresses just blows me away. I love this quote:

“BHLDN’s gowns 'pay respect to the old, new, borrowed and blue, but each with a wink and a nod.'”

http://www.bhldn.com/

thanks jeheki rafikiiiiii.

sick.

blahh. i've been sick to my stomach for the past few days. first i thought it was a stomach bug because i was vomiting everywhere, but now i have a regular cold and possible ear infections. sighhh if only i had health insurance HAH.

anywayyyy, i wanted to share some random photos that I've saved over a period of time. I've gotten these pictures from the blogs listed on the side panel.

D&G maxi dresses. I've been dying over maxi dresses lately and I plan to wear them every day during spring and summer.

ughhh. i love braiding my hair, but i don't think i can do this to my own hair. I wish i knew somebody who could braid my hair like thissssssssss. (got this picture from fashiontoast)

ballerina project. i've always wanted to be a ballerina and i love the city vibe.

anja rubik's killer legs. and a maxi dress of course.

i love this!! and i love her.

hopefully i start feeling better soonnnn. and hopefully i'll one day post outfit pictures like i always wanted to do hahah. anwayyyyyyy, THE END.