"He is just what a young man ought to be."

I know i'm a bit obsessed... and it's sad that he's the same age as my brother, but aaron johnson is seriously mmmmmmmmmmmm.

whoaaa! so soon??

i'm procrastinating hardcore with studying so i decided to put some makeup on since it's friday and do another outfit post because it's fun. YAY! it was too hot today so my pictures are a little crappy since i stayed inside haha.


i don't know why i insist on wearing these black shorts/tights because they make my legs look even thicker than they already are.. but oh welllllls. (i cropped my legs out HAHA)




i look so mad in this picture.. didn't mean to.






i was hot by the end so i did a cranky face...

have a nice weekend. that is all.

wearing: pink boyfriend blazer from goodwill/bracelets from the sista and mama/uo cream embroidered dress/uo bra/h&m tights/uo shoes.

wish i had somewhere to go.

so after waking up around 7am to watch the soccer game on the spanish channel, i took a four hour nap and woke up around 3pm. HAHA. did the dishes and danced around in my jammies for about an hour, worked up a sweat even after i took a shower and decided to wear something bummy and something that wouldn't make me sweat. naturally, i pulled out my purple acid wash tshirt and diy actual boyfriend shorts. went to walk oskie and realized how NICE it was today. warm with a nice cool breeze. I LOVE THIS WEATHER. so i decided to do another outfit post, but i noticed that i had nowhere to wear my outfit. so this is my what i would wear if i had somewhere to wear this outfit post! yay yippee doodle freaking day.

i'm excited because i found pretty places in my house to take pictures. hahah. instead of just taking them in front of my crappy white closet.


paparazzi shot haha.


tree covering my face. how it should be. :)




crooked, but i like the sunlight in the pic.






sorry this is a mayjah picture overload. i guess this is because maybe i won't post another one for awhile. hahah. and i should really be studying instead of doing these, but whateva skaneva. i also quickly changed back to my tshirt and shorts to go hang out with grace. hahah.

on me: a silk vintage dress from goodwill (with shoulder pads holla)/leather pumps with zippahsss/random gold bracelets and green floral bracelet from st. maarten/bright yellow sillyband from one of my yg kids. hahahah.

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sometimes i wish i could disappear forever. so i don't have to see the people i don't want to see.

mayjah issues.

i have some mayjah sleeping issues. ughhh no matter how long i lay in my bed waiting for sleep to come, I SWEAR IT NEVER DOES! i think this is why i'm getting fat? my parents have been ragging on me about my weight like it's nobody's business. you're so fat here and you're so fat there... you're so fat everywhere!!! i don't know about you, but honestly, those words do NOT motivate me to get up and exercise. it makes me want to stuff my face with mcdonalds fries and kettle cooked salt and vinegar chips thank you very much! the only exercise i get is when i hear a really good upbeat song and i add it onto my mp3 player so that i can go into my bathroom and dance like a crazy person. i hate running. absolutely hate it. HATE.

here are some random issues/thoughts i've been having:

i wish i could wear more makeup, especially eyeliner and jawns but, when i put my contacts on and put makeup on as well, my eyes get so irritated and i start blinking like crazy. i HATE contacts!! i HATE my blinky eyes!!

it would be cool if i could sleep like a normal human being. reallll cool.

i love warm weather, but i miss having to layer. i didn't do it too well this past fall/winter/spring, but i'm determined to do better this year.

my first lookbook post was embarrassing because nobody hyped it except for my ever-loving, loyal, and supporting friend gracie. hahah.

i'm determined to do better outfit posts. or not better since i'm not gonna really betterize my style, but maybe do them more often? i think it will motivate me to get up in the morning.... haha so sad.

why is my life so sad? HAHA!

i get bullied into doing things all the time. sighh...

i'm hungry.




i wish it was cool enough to even want to deal with tights and light jackets.. unfortunately, it is way too stinkin' hot.

blah di dah.

since i've been a bit depressed lately i decided to embarrass myself a little more and do another outfit post. i've been crazy inspired by bloggers. i don't even know how some of these girls put outfits together. some of their outfits are the craziest things everrrrrr. since i suffer from a major case of insomnia, i blog surf until around 6am and then i finally get tired. it's a strange world. yes indeedy heedy.

so i revamped my old jean jacket by detaching the arms and my mom was nice enough to sew up the ragged edges for me. i wanted to try doing it myself, but i don't think my mom trusts me to use her ancient sewing machine... whatevs. also, i bought this navajo indian looking skirt jawn a long time ago from asos. i never wore it and it still had the tag on it. it's just a really FULL skirt and i thought it was mad fugs. but since i got a little chubsters i thought i could work it in this outfit. i'm also wearing a cream tank blouse that i got in my senior year of high school from bloomingdales and one of my mom's really really old lace cropped tank. i love taking her clothes. muhehehhoohofefsfeafafa!









i'm not wearing any makeup nor did i accessorize (i didn't shower either). whateva skeneva. and my glasses are actually prescribed. i don't have fake glasses (which i wouldn't mind having) and my nose has been bleeding a lot lately. my last nose bleed was in first grade in Ms. Smiley's class and i was wearing khaki pants and a white shirt. the blood got everywhere and i had to walk around like a little loser for the rest of the day. oh to be a little first grader again.


wearing: old jean jacket from american eagle/vintage cropped lace tank/old cream tank blouse from aqua/skirt from asos/ebay glasses from jason


haha! i was wondering why my pictures are kinda smudgey looking and it's because my fingerprints are all over the lens of my camera! haha.. i'm an idiot. and sharon, thanks for enjoying my posts. i did this for you <3

nothing special.

i've been feeling really blah this past week. just really blah and whatever. no motivation. wanting to cry randomly. wanting to sleep at regular hours, but always ALWAYS getting tired around 5:30am. this year has sucked so far. nothing has made me happy. nothing. man... Jesus, i'm lost aren't i? sighh... i need some help in getting found. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

sidenote: i get annoyed when people rag on my fashion sense. okay, maybe i don't pick the most flattering, or the most sensible things to wear, but honestly? i don't bother anybody about their boring wardrobe, so don't bother me about my flashy and clashy shizz. i will wear my lipstick, i will wear my fugly glasses (which i have no choice but to wear), i will wear my thrifted clothing, i will wear multiple patterns in one outfit... WHATEVS! you're not my mom. i will wear whatever i like. thanks.

i don't like when people rely on me to be the funny one. say funny things. be jolly folly holly. well, i don't feel like cracking anyone up these days, so soz if i don't talk to anybody for a good long time. maybe i'll speak to you in a year.


this post sucks so i'm gonna add some pictures of another fav model of mine: liya kebede.










i love her. that is all.