Saturday, January 30, 2010

freja beha.



So I decided to dedicate an entire entry on one of my favorite models, freja beha erichsen. SHE IS SERIOUSLY SO HOT right now. Ericksen has been hot for a couple of years now so i don't exactly know why i said "right now." i think i just connected models with the movie zoolander and blah di dah. ANYWAY, back to freja beha.

she's obviously not a model from around here. She's danish. of course. all the hot models are from out of state. she is also the same age as me. born in 1987. we could be friends. i stalked her on google, models.com, whowhatweardaily, etc. yeah, i might be a bit obsessed, but who cares? who isn't obsessed with her right now. I check models.com religiously and found out that her rank has moved up throughout the past week. freja beha's number FOUR now. she's one of the top 5 models in the legit fashion world right now. she's so hot. why. ANDDDDD DON'T get me started on her 12 tattoos. perhaps i shall save that for another entry. yes, i shall.

i think she might be a lesbian too. i think she's currently dating one of my other favorite models, catherine mcneil. i got all this info from google.com so if i'm wrong, then blame google. all i can say is that i'd go lesbian for freja beha. sorry jason, i still love you. :)

i just wanted to upload some other pictures of her so other people can appreciate her beauty.



this is her with catherine mcneil, her lover? let me just tell you that this picture is probably the best one of freja beha ericksen.



her style is so masculine and i love her for it. i wish i could rock the manly look as well as her. she wears a mixture of black, grey, and white and doesn't look boring or drab. it also does help that her legs are the size of a person's arm. but it's all good in the hood because all people are made beautiful............ just not as beautiful as FBE. :)

update: yeah she is dating catherine mcneil! they even have matching rings that they wear on their right hand, middle finger.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

happy birthday mama.

happy 51st birthday to my dearest mama.





we love you.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

sighhhh.

i wish i wasn't so negative all the time. negative nancy. i wish to be a positive polly.

on my mind.



freja beha erichsen is the best model around town. i want her tattttttssssss. ughhhhh she is my favvvvvvvvvvvvvv.

i wish to go thrifting again. i want a good leather jacket, jean jacket with the arms artfully ripped off, studding that jean jacket, and other cool thrifted things.

it bothers me when certain girls try so hard. especially when they used to think haute couture was like... abercrombie and fitch. i'm not saying i'm the biggest fashionista out there because i'm obvi not, but it just irks me when girls think they know what they're talking about when they have absolutely no clue. sorry if this offends you.

i shouldn't be bothered by stupid things like fashion. sigh... ohwell.

i feel mucho large and in charge lately. probs because i'm getting my period soon. eating everything in sight. effffffff.

i wish i lived in california because they stole all of the good thrift stores.

my stomach has been acting up so much it's bothering the heck outta me. yeah, with my stomach condition, i should only be eating fresh food. no dairy. no grease/oil. BUT TOO BAD SO SAD. i can't survive without dairy and fatty foods.

my mind says eat em' all, my stomach says please stop.

leighton meester's "your love's a drug" is mad catchy.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

hero.

hannie is my hero. :)

call me snickers.

So I put my name in one of those jersey shore name generator thingy majigs and my guidette name came out to be "snickers." I thought this was HILARIOUUUSSS. I got even more excited when we all decided to go out for a birthday dancing partay for my bestest, SOO!

We were originally supposed to go to Glounge, but it was pretttty lame. We were on the VIP list, but we had to wait in this long line of VIPs AND unfortunately, we had to witness this old man of probably 68, come out of his ballin' car with a stylish girl of only like.. 26. He was grabbing onto her and trying to get kisses from her and she just looked like she could die of nastiness. Maybe he was buying her some nice outfits for somethin' something' in return?? WHO KNOWS. IT WAS GROSS.

The line was too long and we didn't want to waste the night, especially since we were looking forward to this for awhile. So, we decided to suck it up and just go to Adesso. Unfortunately, it was packed with mad asians, which is the main reason why we didn't want to go there. We got in right away, but it was packed with MAD SKEEVS! Eunji and I had to literally fight off guys to get away from the girls. Plus, nobody could get past me since I was a head taller than every guy in that freaking club. There was this one kid who tried to break into our circle, but I almost fist pumped his head off so he tried to be cute and hump my leg. That didn't go too well because he foreal reached my boobs. It was sad. Sad, sad asian boy. I literally had to shake my leg like I was trying to get a tick off and he was gone.

Besides for being called "The circle of death," we definitely ripped up the dance floor. We had so much funnnnnn. And I got a little crazzzy. I missed dancing. I missed hanging out with just girls. I missed pushing away little boys who I pretty much eat for breakfast. AHHH, Eunji eats those types of boys UP. She was HILARIOUS. "GO AWAY."

We went to rising tide afterwards and ate some salt bake squid, which was so yummy in my fatty tummy. Our waiter was so cute. He would clap at everything we said. He would pour water into our cups and I would give him a thumbs up and then he would clap all cute. Yeah, what a night. I'm happy Soo had a great birthday night. :)

At the end of the day, I was excited to see Jason at church today. I'm so happy he's not the type of guy who lurks in dark corners at skeevy clubs, humping on random girls' legs. :)

I can definitely say that I fist pumped the night away with all my heart and lived up to my guidette name, Snickaaaaaaaas.


[Here are some pitchas I stole from Elaine :)]


I'm sorry, how cute is she?!?!!? SOO THE BIRTHDAY GIRL!!


My GIRLLLLLLS!!! Lynda's not in the picture though, which makes me sad :(


FIST PUMPIN' THE NIGHT AWAY!


I was the last person on the dance floor, so I decided to bring it out to the streets haha...


My fug self at rising tide. Great ending to a supah fun night. :D

Friday, January 22, 2010

modeling 101

HAAAAAAAA. obvi modeling is not for me, but I just wanted to try being cool by trying on my mama's vintage clothes that she gave me. Yeah, I know I look kinda stupid taking pictures of myself and whatnot, but please ladies, do not tell me that you don't take self pitchas of yourself.... AND! I haven't taken self pictures of myself since like, freshmen year! I don't know why I'm trying to back myself up for taking pictures of my self, especially when nobody reads this blog HAHA. ok cool.

anyway... here are some things that she gave me that i absolutely LURVEEE. She gave me many oldddddie vintage blazers that are funky fresh, but I only put on one and took pictures. I also put on her vintage, stewardess-looking, navy blue dress with her mayjah expensiveeeee scarf. yayyy. I also put on this striped vintage Tahari blouse with a long green skirt that's tahari as well. YEAH-YUH.

Here are the pictures. please, don't make fun of me. I know, i should never do this again buttttttt hahahehehehohofofoffefeffafa!



I have my hand on my belly because I ate a lot today and let me tell ya... it ain't lookin good.



I can kind of tie my hair up now YESSSS.



awkward, but i love my blazzzzerrrr.



i love it so much that I only smile when wearing it.



YAYYYYY. That is all.

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOO!

chere maman

Although we don't get along as much as I wish we could, I do truly appreciate my mama. For the longest time I thought she was the most selfish person alive, but now that I'm living at home, I understand that if you give her some lovin', she'll ALWAYS give you some lovin' back. She just needs that little push. I've always been the rebel child. The child who always had something to say, who always got the piercings, did the drugs and alchohol. I put her through a lot. I gave her mayjah attitude and almost ALWAYS slammed the door in her face. I've always been the good for nothing brat. Although sometimes it seemed like she didn't love me through all of my tweenie tantrums, she really truly did.

We've been getting along exceptionally these past couple of weeks. She even went to Michael's craft store today to make me a bracelet with charms all over it. Yeah, it might seem corny and childish, but I love it. I love that one charm says "daughter" on it and I love that she added a bunch of hearts all over the bracelet. It's probably the sweetest thing I've ever gotten from her.

merci maman.




(the picture's blurry, but you get the idea) :)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

mad props.

hahah remember when people used to say that? MAD PROPS YO. MAD PROPS. Well, I'm bringin' it back.

mad props to mastuh woo for spicing up my blogspot. woooooohoooo. Hannie banans, you're the best and i'm happy that you made a decision for yourself and yourself only. i support you til the end!! haha.


the end.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

bad boy.

So, Jason jokingly always calls me a bad boy if I'm being mean or I say something foul. Yes, I'm a girl. And yes, I enjoy being called a bad boy. I think it's cute.

Anyway, these past few weeks (more like these past few months) I've been really angry and bitter towards everything. Who even knows if it has to do with me being unemployed (STILL), or maybe it's because I just hate the world and everything in it. WHO KNOWS. All I know is that I've been calling everybody sluts, whores, sometimes I tend to say, "I wanna smack a hoe," and I even throw in "it just makes me wanna punch a baby."

I don't even know where I'm going with this. I guess I just wanted to write this down to remind myself that I did once hold some remorse for the fact that I say some really mean things without noticing it.

I feel the worst for Jason. He has to deal with the bulk of all my crap even when he has nothing to do with the reason why I'm angry. So yes. I fully admit that I am a bad boy. The baddest boy. And I guess I want to say sorry. I especially want to say sorry to my man friend. He is the best and he doesn't deserve me ripping him apart in to pieces because of things he never does. He is the greatest guy there is and I need to learn how to show him my appreciation instead of being in a sourpuss mood all the time.

Sighh.... and I really need to stop overeating or eating two five guy burgers in one day. maybe i should lay off the coconut macaroons as well. GAHHH at this rate, I'll be the size of a whale in a couple of months.

okay, this entry needed to be done a long time ago.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

WICKED was madddd wicked.

jason took me to watch Wicked tonight. i've been waiting to watch this broadway show ever since i was in high school. we sang a medley of some of the songs from Wicked and from that day on... i knew that we were meant to be. me and wicked that is. Sigh... if i could only just tell you how amazing it was.

for a moment. for two and a half hours, i was taken away from reality. all the things i've been worrying about. all the things that are constantly pounding down on my shoulders. they just went away. it brought me back to my high school years when i would go home and record myself singing "for good." it brought me back to the years where i was free and filled with so much youth. i know i'm still only 22, but i feel like i've aged triple the amount since this past may. watching wicked helped me to breathe again.

this is why i thank God for giving me a man that is so sensitive. someone who understands me. someone who loves me and continuously shows me the love that God has given him. i'm lucky. no matter what. i have no job, my parents may be disappointed in me daily, i may not have a car, health insurance, etc. but i am loved.

and since God has given me such a great man. We are..

"Unlimited
Together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been."


after watching wicked.


thanks honey. i love you.

ramblings.

so. i don't know if it's me or if i woke up on the other side of the bed today, but this day was probably one of the worst days in the history of worst days. i think you get the point.

i think im starting to realize that when people graduate from college, you become this entirely different person. so different. so new. i changed a lot. my friends from school have changed a lot. i see things so differently now. i don't know if it's just me being a little brat and wanting things to go back to what they were or... who knows. i don't know. i don't care.

all i know is that i'm so very thankful for my jason and i'm so very thankful that God gave me somebody that understands me and loves me so. i'm lucky to have my man friend and i'm lucky to be alive.

p.s. something that really pisses me off is that you can't look cute and indie if you're asian. you just end up looking like a fob. and that's definitely NOT the look i was going for. so please, say that i look like a fob and i might have to break your nose. thanks!

Saturday, January 2, 2010

feel good.

i'm feeling good. maybe it's because i'm listening to the upbeat song, "I feel it all" by fiest, or maybe it's because i'm excited for the future. I guess you can say that i'm excited for this new year. it feels like this huge bubble is expanding inside of me. not one of those painful gas stomachaches, but a very upbeat, I CAN DO IT sort of aching.

i ache. i'm aching to do well this year. i'm aching to make my parents proud. i'm aching to desire God so that I can fully appreciate why i'm here on earth. i can't go back to where i was. i can't feel the way that i have been feeling for half a year. that feeling of watching everybody rush pass me as they move along happily in their lives, while i stand in place... maybe even moving backward. seeing nothing but the backs of people running into improvements and opportunities. i don't want to be left behind. i wish to move forward also. i wish to jump into situations fearlessly. i wish to be fearless. i wish to fear no one but God.

i want to try. i want to be pushed. i want to expand (not literally). i want to learn. i want to be ready. i want to be prepared. prepared for all the failures and chances.

i don't know what i wish to do with my future. and honestly, i really don't think i have a choice. it's not in my hands. i just need to seek hard and hope to find it.

lord, help me strive to be a better woman in You. help me want to try for You.