i don't understand why we all have to grow up. why can't things just stay the same? why does everything have to be about money, jobs, and the future? why can't i just marry jason without jobs or money?
i know the answer so please don't say anything. it was rhetorical. i just wish there was a world where nothing like that really mattered. i could just hold jason's hand and we'd fly over buildings, clouds, and birds just like peter pan. or i could own my own wand... hmm... 11 and a half inches, phoenix feather, and dragon heartstring (i totally made that up). i would use that wand to become an auror with jason-- actually nothing too dangerous-- i would use that wand to create a dress robe store and i would definitely put madam malkin's robes for all occasions to shame. OR even better! we could live in the shire in our cool looking house with a round, wooden door, smoking our pipes outside on rocking chairs. we could own a farm and grow our own vegetables and milk our own cows.
why am i thinking about all of these fairy tales? maybe it's because i have a huge interview tomorrow located in new york city with a company that i would DIEEEEE to work for, or atleast i used to think so. magazine publishing. it's the reason why i majored in english and chose an emphasis in publishing. now i'm in the real world. what do i really want? what does God really want. do i still want to chase my dreams and get lost in the infamous concrete jungle? do i still have the same dreams? i don't know. i'm stressed. i'm lost. i'm confused.
i just want to grow old and fat(not so much) with jason and be happy.
maybe i need to grow up. maybe i need to toughen up. maybe i need to stop thinking so much. maybe maybe maybe.
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